WHY YARA ROSE?

Why Yara Rose? When I first decided that I wanted to setup a healing website to share my own journey with other’s in the process of healing, I knew immediately that I wanted my website to have a name that would include butterflies and roses. They have both been a constant source of healing for over the last year and a half. It started the week before I was taken out on medical leave. While driving to and from work that week, I would get this weird urge to stop at the flower shop on the corner to purchase a dozen roses. The first couple of days I just ignored it and kept driving by. It seemed like such a weird thing to do. I was a realist and buying roses for myself for no special joyous occasion was not something that I did. Not only was there not a special reason to have them, but also, I was feeling miserable by this point and generally wanted to get home asap to rest my throbbing head. This urge didn’t make sense. After a couple days of this in which the urge to buy the roses increased, I gave in and bought myself a dozen red roses for no reason. You know what, it didn’t break the bank 😉. They were actually nice to have around. I would find myself stopping throughout the day to look at their beauty and breathe in their aroma. They would offer me a moment of peace and beauty in my crazy and stressful life. I had always loved roses before; they are such a beautiful flower and come in such a variety of gorgeous colors as well as smell wonderful. However, since this specific time, my love for them has grown immensely. It’s that additional appreciation for something that brought a tiny bit of peace and hope back into my life when I so desperately needed it. We’ve added several rose plants to our landscaping last summer and I have been giddy with excitement watching them grow back this year. Considering garden roses require a lot more tender loving care and my black thumb, I sometimes wonder why it couldn’t have been a different flower. But then, I remember that’s the whole point. We are all beautiful loving souls that require tender loving care. Roses have come to mean so much to me through my journey that I had to incorporate them somehow.

As a child, I thought butterflies were interesting creatures considering the huge transformation that they undergo from caterpillar to butterfly. They never had any significance to me though before last year. Last summer, I started seeing butterflies everywhere. At first, I just thought that this was odd because they would show up in the most random places, places that I wouldn’t have expected them to be. For example, as I was sitting on my husband’s motorcycle waiting for him to come back from paying for the gas, a butterfly flew right by my feet and stayed between the gas pump and me for a minute or two before flying off. I remember looking around at the bustling city with tar and concrete everywhere and thinking how strange it was that a butterfly would be hanging out here. When I would walk outside from my office building to the manufacturing building, it wouldn’t take long and a butterfly would soon be spotted somewhere along the way. I started walking my backyard consistently throughout the summer and when I would start to think about my grandparents and how much I missed them and wished that I could speak with them directly I would see a pair of butterflies, sometimes two pairs, flying around me. Sometimes, they would hang out for the entire walk and other times they would make a brief appearance and then be on their way. After seeing them pop up so much, I started questioning why it seemed like they were everywhere. I looked up whether their population had grown immensely or something and found that the opposite was true. The Monarch Butterfly specifically had been decreasing in population for years. I started thinking that they had to be a message from my grandparents. I confirmed at my next session and there were indeed signs from my grandparents to show they were still around and with me on my journey. Being in an analytical occupation for almost ten years, I couldn’t help but ask myself: why a butterfly? My grandparents have used different animals to communicate this same message to my other family members, so it seemed to me like there had to be a reason that they chose the butterfly for me. Of course, it didn’t take me long to realize the reason. It goes back to what I had said at the beginning. The butterfly is a result of a caterpillar’s successful transformation. I am undergoing a huge personal transformation myself. As with any change, I have personal setbacks on the way. There were days when I would really question if I was gaining any ground on changing my perception and old habits. There were days when I would wonder if I would ever figure out what my soul’s purpose was. Looking back, these were the days that the butterflies would show up the most to provide me physical proof that transformations do indeed happen successfully all the time and of course that my grandparents love and support me. They gave me the hope that I needed, I too could persevere and complete this transformation. To this day, butterflies continue to be a visual sign of my grandparent’s love and support. I love the sight of them and look forward to seeing them around. 

Honestly, I just didn’t feel like Butterfly Rose or Rose Butterfly flowed right for my pseudonym. So, like many people do these days, I searched the internet for words in other languages that mean butterfly. When I saw Yara as having an Arabic, Brazilian origin meaning of "small butterfly", I felt it was the perfect fit for my name. The smallest thing can make the difference between success and failure. I believe in you all; you can overcome whatever hardship you are currently undergoing.

Love,

Yara Rose